Emotional Mentality of “Coronacation”

Should I feel selfish for feeling bad about myself during my “coronacation”? 

I live in a financially stable house, no one I know has coronavirus, and I have supportive friends and family whom I can talk to over text at any point. 

But I feel so mentally and emotionally low. 

I’ve found that it’s hard to justify my emotions because to me, everyone is basically in the same situation as the next person, so why should my emotions matter any more than the next person’s? 

I ranted about this to myself. I ranted about how it was hard to sit here, not seeing my friends, or doing activities, or doing anything productive. In this rant, I seemed to ignore the fact that I was being lazy, and I could do all of those things from the seat where I was currently sitting. 

But it seemed so much harder–working for things I usually didn’t have to. 

But also, that’s life, and I was used to my life. 

I am so desperate to talk to my friends that I am currently in a group FaceTime made for playing pokemon, but I don’t have any pokemon games. I’m just watching. 

Am I sad I might not get to attend prom this year? Yes. Am I sad I might not be able to see some of my senior friends again? Of course. 

But people are dying. 

That is the selfish mentality that is safe to have during “coronacation.” Because we’re all human, and sooner or later, we have to feel human emotions. It’s unhealthy to keep everything bottled up, whether you’re morally right or wrong. 

Besides, talking about your emotions out loud—even to yourself–is a good way to reevaluate your true emotions. 

Let humans feel sadness because not letting people justify their own emotions is almost as bad as genuinely not feeling emotional about people you don’t know who are sick or dying. 

Yeah, obviously, it’s not as bad, but finding the balance between feeling bad about yourself and feeling bad for others is vital to have a healthy relationship with your mental health.